IS THIS THE BEGINNING

IS THIS THE BEGINNING OF THE END OR THE END OF THE BEGINNING?

As a clinician, I know that as the time for living grows shorter and shorter the patient begins to not take much of the environment in.  As a patient, I can attest to this.  I find myself less and less involved with what is going on around me.  WOW, I never do stop learning do I!  I am now understanding what all I learned from the text books. This disinterest is somewhat disconcerting.  I feel like I am half in and half out. I am left wondering when I will be all of something. The TV shows that I faithfully watched I find I don't care if I see them or not. This is really the time that I must take one step at a time.  There is no setting up a schedule, hurrying, or delaying anything. I have become blase'.  I must just live in the now and be satisfied with that alone.  I'm seeing the process of slowing down wondering when I will see the stand still. Meanwhile, I am chugging along at the speed my body wants me to go.  I just had a phone call from a young priest I knew in Alaska.  He told me that he is trying to get enough frequent flyer miles together to get my son here. Those prayer chains stretch over the world!  If I were to take the time to individually pray back I would have to live as long as Methuselah!  I don't mind the age so much as I mind the hairstyle! Not near as easy as ours, huh Marcie? For now, know that I love you all as much as anyone could love another.